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I spent an hour this morning writing a fine tirade about the current occupant of the Oval Office. I'm pretty proud of it, actually. I really opened up and dished out a grand beatdown, leaving no piece of unflattering news (or crass innuendo) off the table. I felt much better after I wrote it.
I'm not going to post it though. It's not going to accomplish anything useful, or even bring anything new to light that isn't there for anyone who has five minutes and an internet connection to discover on their own.
The Democrat party is my enemy, and the enemy of all freedom loving Americans. It just is. All the same, I have a certain pattern in my life. I tend to destroy, or try to destroy things that I hate. Some things are quite worthy of hate and I won't apologize for how I feel.
All the same... On a magic monday awhile back, a poster said he sold his soul to a demon for wealth. He was afraid he'd lost his soul and wanted to drive away demonic influences from his life. JMG told him to select a religion that he found distasteful and dedicate himself to that religion wholeheartedly, renouncing all of his wealth. For some reason I don't recall, the poster chose Islam and began going to a mosque.
The poster checked back in a few times, through people who he met in his new life (I believe he'd been given instructions to stay off the internet as part of his penance, for lack of a better word). Now frankly, I'm not completely convinced that this story is literally true (I mean, JMG gave him the instructions, but I have no idea if its the same guy playing some kind of weird game or if the whole thing is legitimate). Honestly, I don't think it matters.
I never sold my soul, nor do I truck with demons, and I'm certainly not going to convert to Islam. But that's not the biggest take away for me from this tale. One of JMG's teachings is that people shouldn't focus on what they want to destroy, but they should instead build up and fortify the things they want to see in the world. I have forsaken any kind of destructive magic, but in my own mind and heart I still want to lash out, to hurt and destroy. I especially want that right now, when I'm scared and hurt and want nothing more than to protect my family from an authoritarian dictator and his lackeys.
The poster was instructed to act against his nature, and (according to the follow up posts anyway) he learned. He is on a spiritual path after falling from grace in spectacular fashion. I haven't done the things that guy did, but I've certainly failed, wallowed in hate, directed rage at people, wished them harm and death. Just because I didn't wave a wand and chant words of power, doesn't mean I haven't killed in my heart and mind. I didn't sell my soul, but who hasn't felt the pull of unbalanced and demonic forces?
I have decided to change... to focus on what I want. Peace, freedom, happiness, family, and community. And I will work and pray for those things, no matter how hard it is, because that's the real test. I used to ignore politics because I could afford to, knowing that while I may be getting screwed over, I was mostly left alone. They've made it so that's no longer an option. And if I didn't care, if I didn't have skin in the game, it wouldn't be a real test, a real trial... it wouldn't really matter.
It matters now. The world needs healers. Anyone can destroy their enemies, kill and maim. It's as easy as pulling a trigger. I'm going to try another way.
I'm not going to post it though. It's not going to accomplish anything useful, or even bring anything new to light that isn't there for anyone who has five minutes and an internet connection to discover on their own.
The Democrat party is my enemy, and the enemy of all freedom loving Americans. It just is. All the same, I have a certain pattern in my life. I tend to destroy, or try to destroy things that I hate. Some things are quite worthy of hate and I won't apologize for how I feel.
All the same... On a magic monday awhile back, a poster said he sold his soul to a demon for wealth. He was afraid he'd lost his soul and wanted to drive away demonic influences from his life. JMG told him to select a religion that he found distasteful and dedicate himself to that religion wholeheartedly, renouncing all of his wealth. For some reason I don't recall, the poster chose Islam and began going to a mosque.
The poster checked back in a few times, through people who he met in his new life (I believe he'd been given instructions to stay off the internet as part of his penance, for lack of a better word). Now frankly, I'm not completely convinced that this story is literally true (I mean, JMG gave him the instructions, but I have no idea if its the same guy playing some kind of weird game or if the whole thing is legitimate). Honestly, I don't think it matters.
I never sold my soul, nor do I truck with demons, and I'm certainly not going to convert to Islam. But that's not the biggest take away for me from this tale. One of JMG's teachings is that people shouldn't focus on what they want to destroy, but they should instead build up and fortify the things they want to see in the world. I have forsaken any kind of destructive magic, but in my own mind and heart I still want to lash out, to hurt and destroy. I especially want that right now, when I'm scared and hurt and want nothing more than to protect my family from an authoritarian dictator and his lackeys.
The poster was instructed to act against his nature, and (according to the follow up posts anyway) he learned. He is on a spiritual path after falling from grace in spectacular fashion. I haven't done the things that guy did, but I've certainly failed, wallowed in hate, directed rage at people, wished them harm and death. Just because I didn't wave a wand and chant words of power, doesn't mean I haven't killed in my heart and mind. I didn't sell my soul, but who hasn't felt the pull of unbalanced and demonic forces?
I have decided to change... to focus on what I want. Peace, freedom, happiness, family, and community. And I will work and pray for those things, no matter how hard it is, because that's the real test. I used to ignore politics because I could afford to, knowing that while I may be getting screwed over, I was mostly left alone. They've made it so that's no longer an option. And if I didn't care, if I didn't have skin in the game, it wouldn't be a real test, a real trial... it wouldn't really matter.
It matters now. The world needs healers. Anyone can destroy their enemies, kill and maim. It's as easy as pulling a trigger. I'm going to try another way.