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When it comes to the Covid-19 totalitarianism / vaccine side effects, I'm kind of like a functional junkie. I get on with my everyday life, I go to work and raise my kids, but there is a shadow over everything. A drug addict experiences this because they are waiting for their next hit (even when you're high, you're still anticipating the comedown; ask me how I know). At this stage in events, I'm addicted to sudden celebrity deaths.
I know it's disgusting, just like a drunk waking up in a pool of congealed vomit knows that's disgusting, but the next day I'm scanning the news just like the drunk is back at the bar or hammering Steel Reserves on the couch. Today I woke up and discovered MMA fighter Stephan Bonnar died suddenly (as of this writing, it's said he died of presumed cardiac trauma). Of course, it could have had nothing to do with the vaxx. It isn't unheard of for 45 year old former athletes to spontaneously drop dead (especially nowadays, eh?). That's part of the gruesome fascination. Is it the vaxx... or isn't it? Is my family safe, or is this going to steamroll? Are the side effects generally rare, or is the death train just starting to chug down the tracks?
I know part of it is probably algorithms feeding me more of what I've already been proven to read, but HAVE there always been this many sudden deaths in relatively youthful people? Non-covid related overall mortality is up quite a bit, so I guess I'm just seeing that reflected on the computer... People dropping like flies real time.
The tone of this post probably makes me sound awful, and I guess maybe I am. I'm not deriving pleasure from this grim hobby (except the dopamine hits, Ari, my inner self-critic replies). I've criticized the whole true crime/murder show phenomenon a few times for turning death and horrific crimes into entertainment... is my little fascination any different or better?
Well, whatever the causes of all of this death, we are living in a whole new world now... one I don't like very much. I'd look away, but then how would I see what's coming?
Anyway... Merry Christmas!
I know it's disgusting, just like a drunk waking up in a pool of congealed vomit knows that's disgusting, but the next day I'm scanning the news just like the drunk is back at the bar or hammering Steel Reserves on the couch. Today I woke up and discovered MMA fighter Stephan Bonnar died suddenly (as of this writing, it's said he died of presumed cardiac trauma). Of course, it could have had nothing to do with the vaxx. It isn't unheard of for 45 year old former athletes to spontaneously drop dead (especially nowadays, eh?). That's part of the gruesome fascination. Is it the vaxx... or isn't it? Is my family safe, or is this going to steamroll? Are the side effects generally rare, or is the death train just starting to chug down the tracks?
I know part of it is probably algorithms feeding me more of what I've already been proven to read, but HAVE there always been this many sudden deaths in relatively youthful people? Non-covid related overall mortality is up quite a bit, so I guess I'm just seeing that reflected on the computer... People dropping like flies real time.
The tone of this post probably makes me sound awful, and I guess maybe I am. I'm not deriving pleasure from this grim hobby (except the dopamine hits, Ari, my inner self-critic replies). I've criticized the whole true crime/murder show phenomenon a few times for turning death and horrific crimes into entertainment... is my little fascination any different or better?
Well, whatever the causes of all of this death, we are living in a whole new world now... one I don't like very much. I'd look away, but then how would I see what's coming?
Anyway... Merry Christmas!