To even imply that a human, or group of humans, could be an enemy, seems to be a little problematic amongst some folks. After all, we are all growing, learning aspects of the divine expressing ourselves in an eternal dance that is inherently beautiful and intricate, with ebbs and flows of energy endlessly moving in grand patterns. In my better moments, I can genuinely see things that way.In my better moments I can see the world the way that I imagine Christ saw it. That those who persecute us do so from ignorance and should be forgiven. I’m not so barbarous and crude that I’ve never turned the other cheek (but I’m not so saintly that I haven’t groused about it now and again).
After the last couple years, my better moments have become a bit more fleeting though. Because the last couple of years have been bullshit.
At some point, I truly believe that most of the world began an all-out information war, and we are caught up in it. Like any war, it is brutal and ugly, and various types of casualties are piling up.
Innocent people get caught up in war all the time and suffer injuries. Even in an information war. I get to watch my oldest boy struggle with OCD every single day because he was made so terrified by COVID and the protocols at school that he can’t even go to bed without enacting ten minutes of senseless repetitive movements. Apparently there’s a lot of OCD and anxiety going around with little kids who have been scarred by this war.
In the book Paths of Wisdom, (which is about the magical qabalah, not the Jewish mystical qabalah; they share features but are not the same), the first meditation on each sphere is a meditation on the negative and unbalanced version, its qlipoth.
These unbalanced energies are in all of us to some extent, as well as in the world at large. Once you know what to look for, it is pretty easy to spot them “out there”, although seeing them in yourself can be a bit more challenging. The ego wants to protect itself, and most people don’t like facing their own inner darkness. I certainly have it; I spent a lot of time wallowing in it and enjoying the feeling of power, of self-righteous rage, and the other emotional payoffs that come with reveling in imbalance. I know now that the bill will come due in time, and in fact I’m sure some of the circumstances of my life are prompted by my own carelessness, irresponsibility, and even maliciousness and cruelty.
I haven’t quite become a saint just yet, alas.
I’m reflective enough to recognize evil in myself, but that’s only part of the picture. It's an important part, because it allows me to take responsibility for it, and to curb it and the excesses it breeds.
There’s a lot of evil in the world just now.
I’m not talking about politics, although I guess what one labels evil probably has a political dimension. I associate with a fairly wide range of people with fairly diverse perspectives and find common ground with most of them, although extremists of either political persuasion leave me cold.
The evil that I see is unthinking, self-righteous, unreflective, and unconcerned with consequence. Can I find that in myself? Sitting here at 4 AM with another bout of insomnia under my belt (insomnia won, obviously), I can see it. Sure I can.
But I also see it “out there”, and as unrighteous and generally unseemly I can be, there are lines I won’t cross. My enemies don’t seem to have those lines. The kind of people who would force medical experiments on the unwilling, bomb populations endlessly to access resources, take over media outlets to spread constant lies for what they are serenely convinced are good causes… Nah. I don’t do that stuff.
Maybe it’s a difference of degree and not kind. I mean, I’ve lied before, and although I never tried to convince someone they were crazy, I’ve bullshitted people into believing my distortions for my own gain, which I would call a form of gaslighting. I wouldn’t do it now, but I’ve done it before, self-righteously convinced that it didn’t matter and no one was getting hurt.
I’ve even hated a lot of people and really intensely wished for bad things to happen to them. Unflattering but true. I don’t really indulge in that anymore (evidently the proverbial old dog can learn some new tricks after being knocked about by karma long enough), but in my heyday I was a spiteful individual from time to time. To time.
But when you see evil in the world, real evil… what do you DO?
Jesus would turn the other cheek I guess. I respect that, truly, but if someone slaps my cheek I’m probably going to bust their jaw. I’m not that enlightened. Maybe I’ll get there someday, but in the interim, come at me and I’ll try to make sure you won’t do it again.
The world can be pretty ghastly. I’ve seen some shit. A good portion of our ruling elite demonstrably do not care about “us”. A good portion of our ruling elite are what I would qualify as being evil.
Nah, I don’t think they are all pedos or get together and eat babies at black masses or any of those fevered fantasies of some folks out there. I think they don’t really give a crap about me, my family, or my community though. This is reflected in me too of course; I don’t typically think about how my patterns of consumption negatively affect people in faraway countries who I’ve reduced to abstractions because I don’t have to see the effects of my choices.
There is another layer beyond the mere indifference to evil that most of us in the Western world display though, because in a good number of our powerful elites, there is an active will to evil, where violence and coercion and deception are all tools of control to advantage some against others. I find this reflected less in myself; if someone hits me I’ll probably hit them back, but unless I’m starving I won’t run around mugging people, and even then I’m not sure I would (not sure I wouldn’t, either, depending on how hangry I got).
Would I take a potentially deadly virus, figure out how to make it jump species, and carelessly or maliciously let it out of a lab to kill and infect millions? Nope. Do I think that people are doing that shit, right now? Sure do.
Would I tell someone that an experimental treatment is safe and effective when I know there’s no way of knowing it because no proper fucking tests were done? Nope. Do I think people are doing that shit, right now? Sure do.
Would I push ineffective masking on people, including kids in school, knowing full well that studies have shown it doesn’t do much of anything except serve as a reminder that there’s a pandemic and everyone should be very afraid all the time? Nope. Do I think people are doing that shit, right now? Sure do.
Would I cover up people dying from heart issues after they took an experimental drug that literally has been demonstrated to cause heart issues, and call anyone who noticed it a conspiracy theorist? Nope. Do I think people are doing that shit right now? Sure do.
I could go on at length, and have now and then on other sleepless early mornings (even on my worst insomniac nights I get a couple hours of sleep in, and I’m grateful).
But what do you do about it?
Honestly, I haven’t done a whole lot. I’ve bitched semi-anonymously here online, I’ve withdrawn my support from other obviously corrupted forms of social media, I’ve worked on resilience and reducing consumption of goods and fuel, though that’s certainly still a work in progress. It’s work that I am doing, though, and I do think it’s important.
I’ve done magic to encourage personal freedom in the wake of what amounted to a mass binding on the whole Western world, and I’ve argued for free speech and expression of ideas in a time where the idea of freely expressing your thoughts has become radical, especially if you have thoughts and perspectives that counter the preferred narratives of the elites I discussed above.
I’ve worked to understand the things I see reflected in the macrocosm by examining myself, and I’ve been working on untangling the way that things that have happened to me are things I’ve created and owned in various ways. That’s all been hard work and not a whole lot of fun. All the same, the evil persists.
There are many possible responses to evil. There are many ways to respond to your enemy. Despite the work I’ve done on myself, and there is always more to do, there is still a growing darkness.
Maybe the best response is to rise above it entirely, but that’s not so easy when you’re living in it. I’m not one to clutch my pearls and stand aghast when someone punches a bully, or consciously reflects some ugliness at a bunch of unthinking people who are unreflectively pushing and shaming people into taking a treatment that is killing people without really doing anything to prevent the disease it is supposed to be stopping.
(Vaccines are supposed to stop the spread. How’s that working out?)
I’m in a war. We all are. I didn’t declare it, and chances are neither did you, but here we are. Pretending we are not at war is an option, but sticking your head in the sand just makes you look kind of clueless. For the record, I’m not talking about or advocating for violence; as much as I find “Joe Biden” or whatever is wearing his skin nowadays unpleasant, I don’t think he’s wrong about the unlikelihood of violence or armed rebellion solving the many problems facing average Americans nowadays.
I don’t know much about war, but I know a bit about fighting against the odds and resisting tyranny. I know you can’t make friends with a bully while he’s grinding your face in the dirt; you either submit or get up and fight.
I know that when you’re at war, you win the fucking thing, and save the niceties for after the enemy surrenders.